Meta information about the CATASTROPHIE project

The idea for this page occurred to me when I was telling a story in the MINDWAVE Discord server in a VC. We were talking about deadnames and I mentioned how my deadname was the chosen name of my best friend. The ensuing genuine reaction by people in the call made me realize what I wanted the CATASTROPHIE project (shortened to CTP from now on) to be. Or rather, what I didn't want it to be.
To not confuse people, I will get this out of the way now. Luke, sophie and any other possible members of CTP are not real people. They are heavily based on my likeness, but they are, in essence, OCs. Everything about their personalities that isn't linked to CTP is still real. Just their relations to one another aren't.

So, like, what? Well, I'll try to explain.
The idea for CTP is inspired by em essex and HALLEY LABS. If you aren't familiar with it, HALLEY LABS is a music project consisting of dozens of furry "aliases" who all have different lore and make different types of music. I'm not too familiar with the lore, but the notable thing is that HALLEY LABS is actually only one person, em.
After finding HALLEY LABS, I became obsessed with the idea of having many aliases who interact with each other. And I already had the basis for it. (Side note, while I do acknowlege similarities with CTP and Disassociative Identity Disorder, the project is not in any way inspired by it and has nothing to do with it.)

Ever since I was a little kid, my dream has been to be a Youtuber and streamer. In fact, I made my first ever channel back when I was only 7. I wasn't really "obsessed" with art and creating things as a kid, I much more enjoyed short-term stuff that made me happy like gaming. But I still enjoyed making videos. My first proper channel was by the name "Daawful", short of "Da awful gamer" (it was like 2016 leave me alone). I was making videos on this channel in 2020 and 2021, mostly about Rec Room. I hardly had any people watching them, I'd say most of my viewers were my school friends at the time. It was those same school friends, who, in 2021, started bullying me for the channel, which (along with a few other things) led me to leave those people and private all the videos on that channel.
I still really wanted to make videos, so I was going to make a new channel. I just needed a name for it. I was going by the name Luke at this point on Rec Room, and I wanted to do something with that name. I was specifically inspired by ConnorEatsPants' name, and wanted something similar to it. Eventually I ended up with LukeKindaWeird.
The content i was posting on the LKW channel was mostly speedruns and other VR related stuff. Stuff that never really required a voice or face. So I ended up deciding that Luke would be voiceless and faceless.
After a while, I started yearning for content with my voice again. But I didn't do anything about that for now. Instead, I was inspired to make an artist name from the signature I made for LKW. That name was LRup.. This was around the time I discovered HALLEY LABS.
Using the word Catastrophe as a name actually came to me in a dream, in which the character Fast from BONELAB was named Catastrophe. I thought that was sick af. Eventually I somehow got the name sophie from catastrophe. And then it turned into Catastrophie, a combination of the 2. I hardly even remember the thought processes behind it all (even though it was like 1,5 years ago as of writing).

That was it. Catastrophie. Eventually LRup. turned out as my main alias rather than an artist name. Helps that I started going by the name sophie.
I decided that the 2 characters would have distinct personalities. sophie is very open about herself online, while Luke is very careful with their personal info. sophie does music while Luke does video editing and is a gun nerd. I essentially split my personality into 2 sides and pretended that they're best friends. There's a lot of thought and meaning in this project that I don't want to share quite yet, but lest assured that it does exist. This isn't just for shits and giggles. This is an actual art project that I have planned and will be planning and hopefully excecuting.

So, what's with the opening paragraph then? Before the present, I had the idea of keeping the fact that I'm just 1 person a complete secret and having a huge reveal stream for it (if I ever got an audience). There are still remnants of that in video descriptions, my Twitch info and this very website. But after that specific voice call, I realized that I didn't want to do that. I didn't want to lie to people about who I am. This project is partially a vent project about loneliness, and doing it how I first imagined would just isolate me more from potential friends. I don't want to do that. CTP is not my undoing, it's my life's work. And with how fucking terrible I am socially and with how few friends I have, the last thing I want to do with this project is make it harder for myself to make friends.

Also yes, I spend more time doing stuff like this page rather than actually making something for CTP. But as my art teachers would say, documentation is half the grade.